Seven days before I board the plane, anticipation is building. I have trouble realising what’s happening, but it’s slowly sinking in.
Maybe it helps to wake up in my parents’ house, say goodbye to my friends, party the night away this coming Saturday, or maybe what I really need is to land in Bangkok’s unpronouncable international airport terminal to make this whole adventure feel true.
Saying goodbye is one of those terrible processes. I am personally absolutely ridden with guilt, thanks to:
– my Grandma who truly believes I am abandoning her,
– my patients who attempt to make me believe I am irreplaceable,
– my Mum who thinks I am running some great danger when I am far away from her,
– the taxman who can’t imagine why anyone would abandon their “situation” and go to another country for a while (ok that guy doesn’t make me feel guilty, strictly speaking!!)
But thanks to all those who truly support me, my project and my short hair; I feel I can go guiltfree. Well a little guilt maybe, but hopefully I’ll feel better once I’m there and actually find what I’m looking for. (Actually, the people who know about the “technical” bits will tell those who care to listen that the more you find out, the less you know. And yes, I am totally aware that I will only find more questions. Bring it on.)
I have given about half my worldly possessions to a charity, I am taking time to pack my backpack optimally and taking the least amount of stuff possible, my hair is so short it hardly ever needs a wash… Yep I feel like I’m ready for the adventure.
The Big Project. Out in Seven days on a blog near you.